Recently, I've been going through a series of very stressful situations in several areas of my life. The old saying "when it rains it pours" sure seems to be ringing true for me right now. It seems that every year, God puts me into situations where I have to deal with more and more, and take on more responsibilities in many cases. I'd like to say that I have all the answers and that none of this made me depressed or anxious, but that just wouldn't be true.
As I was pondering where I'm at and trying to figure out what God may be trying to say to me in all of this I came across these words in Psalm 112:6 & 7.
"Surely the righteous will never be shaken; they will be remembered forever. They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord"
As I read these words (which I've read many times before) it hit me (like never before) that by stressing out, being depressed and anxious, I was actually proving to myself that I really don't trust the Lord. I was allowing myself to be "shaken" by the circumstances I was being faced with. In light of this I had a moment of clarity and felt God simply saying to me "Paul, do you trust me?" I bowed before Him right then and there and asked Him to forgive me for my unbelief. I said "Lord, forgive me and I'm going to trust You in this situation".
Since that prayer, the problems have not all gone away, but my heart is now at peace because I know that whatever the outcome, He is in control and He always has was best in mind for each of us.
